Stupid Girl

I slept like a baby last night..for the first time in a long time. I guess the reason why I haven't been able to sleep lately isn't a problem anymore. Letting go resulted in me finally realizing that this is not worth it. I believe that everything happens for a reason, therefore things are like this for a reason. Right? Right.

I'm tired of playing the victim, I'm tired of bitching and crying about why things aren't the way I want them to be. I've lost myself along with my dignity throughout all of this. Sometimes I feel like everything is falling apart and I can't do anything about it, but truth is, I'm the only one who can do anything. I was so stupid enough to think that I could just wait around for others to fix it. I was so stupid enough to think that things would actually work out. I was so stupid enough to think that I was worth it to you. I was so stupid to think that this could really be something great. I guess I had a momentarily lapse of judgment.

I might not be able to control my feelings, but with whatever ounce of dignity I have left, I will fight them.

If We Ever Meet Again- Timbaland ft. Katy Perry